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i'll be flyingggg.

2005-11-11T08:29:00.000+08:00

HEYS GUYS!!
Hahahaah.. After loooongggg looonng big fat years had pass, and here's my post.
Aahhahaha..
I also donno wat i'm writing.

Anyway, i'll be away from 11 nov to 16 nov. Don msg mi ieh. Cos it will be overseas charge. EXPENSIVE! HAhah..

If gt pictures, then will TRY to update if i'm not lazy. =D
Take care!

Real me now.

2005-08-08T13:30:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps. Its the REAL me blogging now. Hahaha..
Previously, its was the fake me, who was updating. Lol..

Jus went to my "old" blog, and take a look.
Didn;t know i'm TAT lame.
Hahahha..
I was like laughing at myself of the posts i've wrote. =D

Well. The big events recently are "CHC 16th Anniversary" and "Festival Of Praise" !!!

Delirious and Hillsong was there conducting the F.O.P! And they made special Guest Appearance at Church 16th Anniversary. Ain't in WONDERFUL?
Hahahha.. Indeed it is. =] *I"m so blessed*

Can't believe tt COMMON TESTS are comin in 2 weeks time! DIEEEEE~
I haven start studying. My Geography and History is terrbile. If u ask me now wat did teacher taught abt this two sub, i'll say i DONNO.
Hahahahha..

Well Well Well..................
CROSS Album is OUT! Woohooooooooooo!
Its Fantabulous! Fabulous + Fantastic= Fantabulous!
Muahahhahahahahha.
I bought both the Cd and Dvd. Its cool ya know.
Hahahhaha.. =) Oh ya. I uploaded the Cross album Front cover for u guys!
So tt u can see how does it look like. =D
Live Worship: City Harvest Church*

Chicken rice

2005-08-04T17:51:00.000+08:00

Today was an "ok" day. Don't know why but maybe because it rained. Anyway, after sch, we went to causeway point to eat. We went to food court to eat. It took us such a long time to decide on what to eat. So in the end, we ate chicken rice and it was sooo.....unexpected.The chicken rice was pretty...interesting. we ordered sweet and sour, and lemon chicken rice Something new at least. But it was weird though...Anyway, after eating we went to metro toy section and we "played" with some toys. Then SUDDENLY, we all have Stomach ache...All thx to the chicken rice we ate. So we went home to go to the bathroom...

Cheers,
X)

. . . . .

2005-08-03T19:50:00.000+08:00

Hi there,

Today is a normal day in school, as usual again...Kinda boring. In fact, everday is boring. *Yawns* Pretty tired
Alright, I'll stop here...

*Yawns*
*Yawns*
*Yawns*
*Yawns*
*Yawns*
*Yawns*
*Yawns*

So Long
+)
*Yawns again*

Hehe

2005-08-02T16:53:00.000+08:00

Hi ppl...

Today is a rather normal day but kinda boring. Boy am i tired! I will write some other time...:)

Tata
X)

Oh my gosh. I hope i'm not sinning. =(

2005-06-07T15:37:00.000+08:00

I am at some kinda lan shop. =(

Guess wat. Its so sickening u know...
Argh.. Well.. manage to chat with elephant yesterday.. She used her dad's lappy..
Cool uh..

Today's emerge conference! Cool and fun.. Wingz was dancing! Great man..
The audi was filled by the presence of God.. So powerful..But i'm ALONE.
He stood me up. Boo hoho Boo..
Well.. can u imagine? Having fun ALONE. Hhahaha..
But the session was really powerful..
Sad enough, i only can go for the morning sessions..As for the rest of the day, i'll miss out so much.
Normally the nite sessions are even powerful sometimes. so... argh.. =(

HURT. Its the killer of ladies heart i suppose.
They get hurt by Words.
And oh yea, i'm feeling this way. =(
Its so harsh.. AHHHh... I hate ya..
Well. its a torture ya?
Yes. It is.
No matter how things change, There won"t be any difference..
Ain't it true?
Haiz... My head's spinning round and round like a ball topple out from the basket.
Opps.. I don even know wat am i writing.. GonG GonG..
Worst. I don even know wat i'm doin!!
Awww.. Elephant.. come back quick...
Pig gonna suffer from hunger...
Well.. elephant gonna buy something for me. =D
Don be jealous k~ Bleah~

T.R.A.N.S.F.O.R.M.A.T.I.O.N

I'm MAD.

2005-06-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

Bo0 hoo hoo ho0... Emerge tml!! Excited.. But i'm going alone. =(
Going alone is kinda bored.. But, i'm goin for God! So.. Shld be okay la~ I hope....
Hahaz.. How i wish i can go for all 3 days. But too bad, i can't.
Well.. This new cg, indeed thr's not alot of youth.. Hahaz..
I must learn to be independent ya? =

Hmm.. Time now 11.22pm.. I can;t slp.. Though i'm really tired... Jus got back from chalet.. Well.. Toking abt tt, tts was really fun~ No pics. =(

I'm waiting for his call.. I called him twice.. But he diverted his call to his hse.. Gosh. All i wanna is jus whether if he's comin.. TTS ALL. Well.. Of cos i do hope he comes, but.. I think tts impossible uh? And i msg him too. Few times. But, no reply. Ok, i admit i was abit too... Sensitive? Ermm. I hope not. But.. It really seems like "hopeless".
Argh. HE JUS WON"T RETURN MY CALL ANYWAY.
Guess wat. I find myself VERY foolish sometimes..
I stay up jus to wait for his call, although i know he's nt gonna call me back.
Ain't i foolish? I start to understand how elephant feel sometimes. though i kept naggin at her abt her husband. =)
Oh well well well.. I'm still waiting for his call.. Gosh. Someone stop me pls. >.<

P.s. ~ Elephant, i know youll ask mi wat happen ieh? Hahaz.. If u ever get to see this, ermm.. jus wait till when u comes back frm china and ask mi. =D

Sometimes i jus wonder is love really tt magical? =P
Why ladies tend to be more sensitive and more emotional?
Are guys like tt too? Well. . i don think so. o.o

*Guys are jus so JERKY. *

Why mus it be u...

2005-06-01T23:31:00.000+08:00

I hav no one to turn to.. And i decide to write my woes down here..

U nv know how i feel. Never.. Ever since, i know i'm not in yr life anymore... U used to be the person i treasure most.. Not anymore now i suppose.. I can nv rely on u again.. But how i wish we can be like last time.. U donno how much i think for u, u nv know how much i miss the time we had last time.. I don expect anything from ya.. All i wanted is only yr attention, time and love. And tt satisfy me more than anything.. Sometimes i choose to run away from u, cos i know i'll gain nothing in the end, but fear. U always say i don seems to appreciate things from u.. But do u know, how happy i was when i got something from u?? No.. You'll nv know... You are the person i trust most in the family, but nevertheless.. You tot i'm jus a passer-by.. I know u hav yr own life.. While i hav mine too.. But.. Hav u ever give a thought, of how much i do really apreciate of the work you've done. I'll nv ever dare to cry out my woes to u anymore.. Not anymore.. You used to be the person i come to whenever i hav difficulties... Or even the first person to come to when i overjoy by some things.. U are the first tt came across my mind whenver i hav something to share.. And u are the person i tt i spend watching movies the most, you are the person tt i wanna come to whenever i hav make my achievement.. U keep saying i take advantages.. But i didn't.. U always look at the appearance.. Will u ever look at the bigger picture?? No i suppose not.. I don wanna hav hatred against u.. Why would things turn out this way, u shld know it for yrself.. Why do i block u in msn whenever u are online? Why do i not ask abt yr daily life now? Why do i wipe my tears away whenever i know its u comin and see wat i'm doin? I nv wan it this way.. The little little acts of yrs, always make me fill with emotions.. U used to be my joy.. And now u are my sorrow.. I thank u for the mp3.. Do u know how happy i was? But i jus keep it in my heart.. I know tts the last item i can get from u.. And i decide to keep it low.. My mind are blank now.. I can't think of anything but u.u.u.u.u and jus U. I nv share this with anyone.

P.S. Ppl.. Don ask me wat happen or who izzit alright? Thks. Don spoil this post of woes. Its brittle.

Ep channel

2005-06-01T11:41:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Well.. Watch starwars yesterday.. With my cousins.. Muahahahahahha.. Well.. I think elephant know wat i mean~

Elephant keep saying tt i've not been toking to her for a long long time.. Well. Me too... Hahaz...
She's goin to china.. =(
I'm gonna be like so dead boring man..

Anyway... Busying with my Sci research.. ITs difficult! WEll. Thk God zu xian, joanna and jasmine are helping out too..

BLessing coming on my way now~~ Free movie tickets for me and my tutor! Muahahahah.. =D
I do really hope i can do well in these comin exams.. Mrs sharma says tt if i wanna go to express, i got to catch up LOTS. And i hope i can continue to do well.. And score 70% and above..
So.. Yuppy doo hoo.. I'm gonna do it! By faith! =D

Take care PeepS.

I fall and stood up from my achievement.

2005-05-20T17:01:00.000+08:00

Firstly.. I wanna thanks my tutor,

GEN CHONG XUE ER

For helping my mid-year.. I pass ALL my subjects! Well.. I'm quite please wth my results! My hardwork had paid off!!
Nono.. I should say me and my tutor hard work had paid off!!
Wakakkakakaz...
I'm so blessed..
Really thank God for his grace.. =D

I do really hope the rest of the year, i can really do well.. Pray pray pray~
And... If possible....

Go to express stream

She's right.. It shld be for my future.. But not anyone..

Well.. I need alot alot alot of: Determination

Perserverance
Direction
Wisdom

Most important of all... The POWER and ANOITING of God.

Phil Pringle services was really wonderful~
Feel with the Holy Spirit through out the all the services..
I went for 3 services... How i wish i can attend for the conference too..
But exams.. =(
Thr will be still a chance yea? Amen...
Muhahahahhahah..

Well.. I felt hurt by some words and make me fall from my achievement..
I tot u will be pleased by my marks.. And well... Nonetheless..
It became discouragement..
Well well well..
As long i know i didn well.. So its okay!! Well.. My tutor was proud of me too..
=D

And i suppose Jesus too?? =D
Tts even better!
Tts enough.. Its enough to cover all my disappointment already..

Wakakakakakkakaz...

2005-05-15T01:10:00.000+08:00

N171. My best family ever.. A best group of ppl i ever occur in my life.. =D Sisters and brothers!!! Presenting to u, N171....... Dun play play ah~ =D

2005-05-15T01:08:00.000+08:00

Oh! A unprepared shot. We use the timing thingy. Well, i think only jacinta and jackson are really aleart uh?! All the "j".. Muahahhaha..

2005-05-15T01:07:00.000+08:00

Wingz and eileen! Sisters~ To fun to with them around.. I jus miss tat..

2005-05-15T01:06:00.000+08:00

Me and my butt. Opps! Buddy i mean, hahaz..

2005-05-15T01:04:00.001+08:00

Hey Brothers! Stop fighting! Well.. These are the fun we had together. =D

2005-05-15T01:04:00.000+08:00

Wei Qian. Ha!

2005-05-15T01:03:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. A friendly and gongly bro? =D

2005-05-15T01:02:00.000+08:00

Wh0o0o0.. Jian wei.. Fierce!!!

2005-05-15T01:01:00.000+08:00

The last N171 cg we ever had.. I really miss them..=)

Boo yea..

2005-05-10T20:16:00.000+08:00

ERmm.. Hi all.. Its a long time that i blog.. hahaz...

Ermmm.. Well...

Exams are here.. I'm really so.... Not gonna do well..

This term revelution:

GO TO EXPRESS STREAM.

Well... I dunno whether if i can.. But.. I do hope so la.. Cos wong, hoho and elephant all thr..

Haiz.. frankly speaking. Sometimes i do really feel odd. Sometimes when i go to their class..

Well.. hahaz.. I shan't say much..

Hav fun in this two term.. hahz.. hanging out with them.. Well.. =D

Change cg.. I hope its a good change.. but...

Well. i shall stop here. i know its a stupid post. but. dunno wat to post leh. hahaz.

ALl the best for the exam! =D

Shan d0ng is fun!

2005-03-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

hi Guys~~~

Back from china.. Shan Dong..
And i reali miss tt!!!!
Argh.. How i wish i can stay longer..
Hahaz.. Got pics.. But haven uploaded yet.. soon!
=D

Reali dun feel like blogging.. But ArielX Say its time to blog!
Ha!
And so.. Here i come..

Shan Ding is reali fun..
Hmm.. But some misfortune happened.. =(

How i wish i can go Again!
Eh.. sHopping time and stuffs there were limited..
So.. Didn;t reali buy great stuffs.. Jus some postcards..
Sorry~ =)

Hmm.. Change cg le..
No more N171.. >.<
Anyway.. We alwaz change for the better!
Well.. I was reali uneasy to attend service wit my new cg..
I jus feel so.. Funny?
Dunno..
Haiz..
Take time..
I miss N171!!!
Things are gonna changes soon and again..
E.M.P.T.Y

Yup.. I'm feeling empty.. 0.0
Argh!
Dunno dunno dunno...
can pull through one la hor??
Lol..

Wenn out wit the royal family of Queen David family today..
Went to town. Watch Hide and Seek.
Its wasting our $$$!!!!
U can jus simply sleep through out the whole show.. -_-"'
Then after tt.. Went to meet niclous..
We all are like went up and down so many times la..
Then went to shop..
And thr's one uncle.. Disgusting.. Tts all i can describe? i think so~ =p
We went to look for stuffs tt the QD family can all wear together as one..
And we were thinking of one t-shirt.. We saw it in S&K Shop..
Cost $20..

Then didn;t buy.. Decide to see more first..
So after our lunch, Niclous went away and look for other frien..
So onli left Queen David, Sean, renata and me..
I wasn't first part of the royal queen david family..
But they said i'm one of the advisor?
lol..

Then we continued to shop and went far east..
I saw a bag..
Its like so nice la!
Then we were thinking of painting QD's name thr..
Cost $22
Its so cool!
I wan it..But in the end didn't buy.. =[
So continue to shop shop and shop..
Then pass by one neoprint shop..
So we went in.. And of cos! tAke neoprint lo..
Hahaz..
Take 2 times.. Same machine..
1st time: The post wasn't good, but we have enough time for decorating the pics..
2nd time: The post were great! But... Didn't hav enough time to decorate all the pics...
Argh.... But anyway... Its still okay la.. =D
Then..... .. Me.... Stupid hand... Cut the photo until like so not straight la..
lol.. Sorry~

Hmm...
Then after we all were searching for BUBBLE TEA..
But we find none..
Oh ya.. When we shop, we saw mr bernard tan and his family.. (Vice- principle)
Hmm.. *back to topic*
So.. Me and renata went to buy **C0okieS & CreaM BlendEd DrinK**
SLurP***
Nicey~~
Muahahahhaha..

Then took MRT Home..Tried~~
*Yawn~*

And... Sean and Queen David all along thought i was sec 1!!!
Wat the... hehex..
*sian diao*
Wkakakakaz..

Anyway.. Enjoyable trip after all..
Get to know more friend through this trip! =D
Thank God..

Kya.. Till here now.. Buaiz!

HappiE ChinEsE neW yEaR!

2005-02-12T20:21:00.000+08:00

Hi peeps.. hahaz

Its the 4th day of chinese new year.. hahaz..
Uh huh.. This year God bless me wit lots of Ang bA0!! hahaz..
Amount: secret! =P

As usual.. I had my renuion dinner.. But its was a tERriblE one.. Worst of the year..
Cos there are some outsider.. Which i feel real uneasy..

Lol..

But i was bless by the third day of chinese new year!!!
hehex.. this is wat happen..
Be patient and see wat i wana say..
Mauahahhahaahahhaha~~~

Okay.. it was a sch day.. But i didn't went To sch..
I didn't went to sch is becos.... OUT OF FUN!!!
Oh no.. hahaz...
Then after tt... In the late evening... N171 came to my hse! and i was bless...
haHaz.. Show them around My hse.. Then share wit them my collections~
Cool huh..

And then.. We had Chicken curry wit beehoon.. And one plate of vege.. *werid*
hahaz..
Finally... ... ... ... We hav CANADIAN PIZZA!!!!!
Y.E.A.H
Kau shing bless..
Buy one get one free..
Got one is barbercue Chicken.. Another one is Cheese one.. *SerDup*
Hahaz.. BlesseD**

Kya.. i keep saying them.. And u guys might still guess who izzit.. hahaz
Okie.. * i sound dumb*
Them refers to : Kai shing, Jian Wei, Wei Qian, Cody, Wei ying, Jacinta and Me!!!
They are real fun ppl.. hahaz..

And they really lighten up my chinese new year.. Hahaz.. =D
And we did something.. Which was so funny.. ANd.... I 'm lazy to type out...
Soni.... Hahaz.. ("0")

Argh.. Mon got test!! And i haven even do my Hw.. And didn;t study for the test.. =P

OkiE... Think i'll stop here now.. Hahaz.. So Q.Q here wish all of u
Gong xi fa cai
Wan shi ru yi
Xing xiang shi cheng
&
ZHAO SHENG GUI ZI!!! =P

Opps... Soni.. I'm out of my mind.. HahaZ..

Buai! *muackiex*

TaKe CArE BeN~

2005-01-30T19:47:00.000+08:00

I HAVE LOTS TO POST!!!!

firstly~~ thks guy for comin my blog!! hehex..

Aniway... Ben is being possed by the "book of the dead"....!!!!!!
*please be extra careful*
WakakakkakakaakzZzZzzZ
He not onli often..'He also CHOPPED the God!!!
Oh no~ he's in deep trouble.. .. .. .. .. .. ..
Pls pray for him ieh??? =P

Today service was faNTaSTiC~~~
Infact.. All service are great ain't it? Lol..

Dunno why.. Nowadays veri lazy to update blog.. hahaz..
Oh ya... Also.. If u ever come across a "guy"...
IGNORE him. He sound like a gay. Its isn't a bad thing.
But one thing for sure, PLS BE BEWARE OF HIM
He's seriously a downrite L.
The formation of this, is call IDIOT

So ppl like zu xian, joanna, veron or whoever.. BEWARE.
He's a dangerous creature.

Tts all i can say.. U know.. Sometimes.. When ur face are too thick, it isn't a good thing..
Be HUMBLE, dude.

Okie.. All for now.. Oh ya.. Been thinking of Reb0rNinG my hair~ But!!!
Say say say.. Until know still haven go.. Argh~
Soon! hehex..

K.. Till here ba..

REMEMBER!

BEWARE.

yawN

2005-01-26T10:53:00.000+08:00

I luv hoho man~~

Her post's so cute!!!! Lol..
She's realli a great gal tt is undescrible.. hahaz.. Wong wong too..
Miss them lots~

Hmmm... I so looking forward to cg and service.. For the presence of God.. Felt recharged.. =)
Which make my week continue..

###I realli pissed.. Veri veri pissed off...
I tried my best.. Wat about u?
You guys dun seems to..
I shall not be stupid animore..
Its realli tiring..
But i dun think U know.. Cos u r not the one who is working!
Fine.. Fine.. Fine..
Watever.. .. .. ### *harsh~

Was blessed by shermane in the morning.. Infact a few days ready~ =DD
Lol... Got ppl come fetch me go sch.. hehex.. Envy eh? =P

Wh0o0o0o~~ Today Sick~~ Pay $28 for fees!!!!! StupiD doctoR... ... *TeaR his license*
Then the medicine still so bitter... HumpH~!

Haiz.. Still not living in happiness yet?? lol.. But one thing for sure.. Last year is soooo much better.. Peace, joy, laughter and fun.. PraY!! 0.0

WhoooooossseeeEee~~ yoU aRe my souRcE anD salVatioN

Chill Gal~

2005-01-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

God our enabler..

He's the one who provide us with everything..

He create heaven and earth

And gave his onli son, Jesus

To cleanse our sins..

No words can describe..

The first u shall seek, is him..

*All i need is the favour of God, not the favour of man*

Hey chino... Trust me.. You're not alone yeah?? I'm NOT transparent.. lol.. Though they might jus throw u aside for a moment, and leave u behind... But rememeber, God will be alwaz there for u.. Amen?? Put yr trust in him.. Have faith! Despite of all trails, be strong! I can see tt u r still holding on.. Also.. Dun use those again ah~ Later "car moh" see then u die die liao.. =P Luv ya!

2005-01-13T18:49:00.000+08:00

S.A.D
S.A.D
S.A.D
S.A.D
S.A.D

Wat do u wan??
Do u hav to make a BIG fuss over small thing??
Not worth.. Definately not worth!
It spoil us!

DisgusteD

2004-12-29T19:27:00.000+08:00

Back.

Seriously Back.

But once again... I dun feel like its my place anymore...
I wanted to make it once again like my place..
But it's different now..
So much different..
Who cares anyway? ? ?
Stress... Its all i hav when i'm here again..
I dun wanna sound so miserable...
But.. It seems to be the fact...
Can't deny..
I wan to be alone..
Thank God he reserve a place for me for a few days..
So tt i can be alone.. I dun feel great when i there again..
With them around, I can't rest..
I can't be myself..
Its torturing!!!!!

People seems to be falling...
I gotcha be strong..
But meanwhile...
Its hard..
How i wish we can get back like how we are in the pasts..
Having fun.. Having laughter, joy and peace...
I wan everything back..
But i couldn't...
Nowadays... I seriously feel tt blogging is the onli one "who is thr for me"...
As i mean tt its something like i can say things out..
Anyway.. I need someone to tok to...
Dunno who.. I think should be God ba..
Our lord of lords... King of kings...

Jus wanna say tt.... Dun give up in watever u r doin.. ALwaz tell yrself u can do it.. And of cos... Do it with strong faith ya? I believe God will pull u through.. It will be such a waste if u give up anything u yearn for so much in the past.. Yeah? With God.. How bad things can be? Amen? Lol.. Remember.. I'm jus a phone call away.. If u can't contact me, jus tag in my chatter box.. Be strong okay? I dun wanna see u fall.. Cos u r really the one i treasure.. Take real good care.. Alright? Take carexXx... ...

FuminG...

2004-12-22T19:04:00.000+08:00

Who0o0o0o~~~
Been away for a long time...
Miss chatmates terribly!!! Lol...

Oh ya.... I super duper disappointed with the one of the magazine...
They bluff me!!!
YOu know wat???
They wrote there taufik batisah Cds will be out on 20 dec.. Then now???
Sob sob......
I went to the Cds shop and look around...
And.....................
NOTHING.

I WANNA COMPLAIN!!!!!!!
Nvm.. Wait lor... See ah.. Once i post this post ah...
All sly fans will write comfirm write something in my tagboard one.. lol..
Nowadays alot of sly fans left something in my chater box... Lolx...
Hmmm.. Now still at my mum side. ..
K lo.... Till here ba.. Got pics.. Hehex... Next time than post up ba..
Oh ya.. Recently very very busy.. Got alot of things to plan.. hehex.. SECRET
K ba.. buai buai!!

Dun miss me ya??~~~~

Taufik Batisah!! "i Dream"

2004-12-10T13:17:00.000+08:00

Wh0o0o0o0~~~

Now outside... Ang mo kio... Using com... The keyboard simply...... Haiz.. So hard to press la..

Yesterday Cg combine was great man!!! Hehe... Those who didn't turn, miss alot leh.. lolx..

But.. Its really fun lor!!!!!!!!! =P sorry..

Also ah.. Happie birthday to veronica!!!! muahahahahha
Though its abit late la..
Tts why there's such things as "belated birthday" ma.. hehehe..

Oh ya!! I finally found "new york minute"!! Praise the lord man!! hehehehehhehex....
I've been searching and seaching.. Fianlly jus now when inside one VCD shop... And The shop rox man!!
Hehe.. But tt one is DVD.. So hav to watch other day.. Go home then watch.. =D

Also.................... PEEPS!!!
I gotcha Taufik Batisah "i Dream"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Muahahhahahahahhahhahhahahhaa.... . .... ....
Tts also the song i downloaded so far, completing downloading with the sortest time!! hehex...
Praise The Lord rite???
Envy??
If u wan, i send to u lor.. But must see whose the person first la.... =P
I also got 'the monent', Mr jones' and the dick lee "life story"... muahahahhahah..
All sang by taufik one.. And got some also.. Forget the title liao.. hehex...

K lo... Think stopping here liao...
I wanna work leh.. To save money.. Do something.. Cannot tell u. =P
Anyone got lobang tell me ah?? Work suitable for age 13...
Hey hey.. Dun look down on my okay.. Dun play play ah..
muahahhahahhhaa..
Okay la.. Gtg liao... Buai buai!!

Oh ya.. Dun miss me ya!! Bleah~~~

2004-12-09T12:14:00.000+08:00

Been away for a long time le....
I miss my com.. My chat mates...

Haiz..

Suffering deep inside me.. Deep deep inside..

Wat can i do other than keeping mum..?

When i'm back to my original place, it feels like it isn't my place anymore...
With the eye sight looking so strange..
Everything is out of place..
Why did it even happen in the first place..?

I've reach another level up again.. A higher level..
A harder level and tougher level...
All i have is God by my side..
I've change.. Emotionally change..
Maybe stronger?
I think so~~
At least i've learn to stand strong.. =)
At least i dun call up ppl often and tok 'bout troubles..
But to some ppl different la~~~ =D

Everybody's so busy... Working up in their own life...
How i wish they can look back for a moment..

Everything is alrite.. Doing so fine..
Its jus only this batch... Totally different from others..
And it changes everything....
It even affect the things tt were doing fine.. ..
I hate being like this..
The life i lead everyday....
Is living with a thumping heart every second, every minute..
Worrying about this and tt.. ..
Its so tough la.. ...

dumb....

Suffering

2004-12-09T11:32:00.000+08:00

Argh!!! the post i jus posted was being delete away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Anyway.. haiz..

Been away for so long le.. miss my com.. my chatmates...

Izzit jus so tough to lead a normal life?

Its been terrible..

Living with a thumping heart everyday, every hour..

It doesn''t work out the way i want..

Its jus so tough a..

dumb...

enough le...

Argh!!~

Ridiculous.

2004-11-29T13:51:00.000+08:00

"hu u i'm his stead he now sleping wat u wan?"

Wat is this huh???

isn't is ridiculous????

Wat is this man. . . . . .

Seriously i got offended man..

Wat are u trying to say here????

In this case, i shall not tok to you anymore.

Wat is this man?? Haiz.... Anyway, lets not get bomba by these ppl...

Yesterday Me, xiaoxi, wingz, eileen, shermane, and wei jie went to causeway.. Then we waited for Wj until like more than two hours lor..... Then after tt we went Sakae sushi..

We were the most noisest one in the whole restuarant.... Then guess wat...... After eating, we continue to stay and take pics.. Pics like kissing, vampire sucking blood and all sorts all funny things.. We laugh and laugh non-stop.. Then tok about gross things.. U never know the feeling if u were thr.. lolx..

Haiz.. This week quite busy.. Activites... Wh0o0o0o0o0~~~~
Monday- Tan tock Seng, catching up a movie with Cg..
Tuesday- Buying books, Church Wide Bible study
Wednesday- Escape
Thursday- Tan tock Seng
Friday- dunno yet
Saturday- dunno yet
Sunday- service! ! !

But hor.. Again.... All these need money....... Where can i get the money from...?
Hope would be able to to really overcome ba..
Hao ba.. Till here....

Again. I'm got seriously offened by you.

FeelinG of l0vE ???*

2004-11-24T11:47:00.000+08:00

I was jus browsing through the net...
Then something slip through my mind..

*Love is jus a feeling*

Hmmm.... Sound true.. Maybe there will be some ppl disagree with me...

i dunno....

But Is love really jus a feeling? ? ?

Wats the defination of love? ? ?

I may sound stupid...

But...

It jus slip through my mind..

So i was thinking of this topic...

Haiz.. .. ..

In this world...
There are love songs, love letters, love bite(u may think tt i'm disgusting, but isn't it true?)
There's more.. But forget le.. If u wanna make any comments, then jus tag at the tag board ba..

Why does some ppl cry over love?
Why does some ppl harm themselves over love?
Why does some ppl jus end their life jus becos of their "lovED" ones? And jus becos he/she left them..
Why does some ppl make their life ever so dull but before tt, their lifes was full of colours?

Its natural to be sad to these things when it came across to you... But if u are foolish enough, then go and cry for life or end yr life ba..
Also... No point thinking about tt person who've jus left you... Who knows one day you might also leave the person.. World's jus like tt..

You might think i'm foolish enough to write these things in my blog.. But.... How do u expect me to reply you?? I myself also can't figure out... These are part of life ba.. You guys must be thinking *is qifang in love?* lolx.. Ya.. I'm in love... In love deeply with Christ..

But when you are deeply in love with christ, it's not jus a feeling.. Its more than tt..

If onli our brain can be like:
-----> Scan-----> Data found------> Delete.
But we can't.. .. ..
Maybe these are negative parts of love ba..

Wat if its positive parts?
It might be wonderful...
They can make your life like heaven..
Jus onli u and the person will do..
The campanion will make u satisfied more than ever...
But... again.. When the person left you, u seems to be living in hell..
True enough ba??
Tts wat i heard from tt person..
He told me things tt i dun usaully understand..
But sometimes it seems to be sharing and to lighten up ba...
All i did was to jus listen to him and give him a pat on his shoulder..
Cos tt was the onli thing i can do.. =P

Is love jus so painful, miserable?
Or izzit nice, sweet and wonderful?
These are all personal thoughts...
How about you? ? ?

Hao le.. I think i'll stop here ba.. See yA.. =)

Blessed~

2004-11-23T13:07:00.000+08:00

Oh no..............

olinda is out!!!!!!
Haiz... Suffered a Huge bloW man....
SlY shoulden't be in the final two.....

Haiz..........

AnyWay.....................................
I'm real blessed on friday!!!!!!!!!!
Infact everyday! =)
hehex...

Seriously.. This year is really the best year tt i have for my birthday.. heheX..
Maybe is becos of N171 ba..
Really veri shock/ suprise....... hehex....

Cos............

When me and Wan ying was making refreshment on friday after cg, i saw some of them went into jian wei's room then dunno do wat.. Then after clearing things liao, we all fellow in the living room... Then i was playing cleon's phone.. Then suddenly jacinta shout: 1, 2, 3!!

HeheX.. suddenly Wei qian play brithday song.. heheX.. I mean play by guitar la.... Then they sing song lor.. hahaZ.. Then off light then xiao xi bring cake out... hahaZ.. But the candle keep on blowing off.. lolx..

Then gave me my presents.. Can consider a cross neckclecs(dunno how to spell.. hehex =P)
Then one part veri funny... When wei ying, wei qian and xiao xi playing guitar, suddenly i shout. =P

Cos my cake drop on the floor..... muahahahahahaha..

Then als0 gave me card.... Really felt the warmth.. like never before.. Maybe u think tt i'm siao.. But.... hahaz..
Then after tt wei qian send me home.. It was raining.. Then guess wat?? instead of sheltering "humans", we shelter the umbrella... -_-"'

Then saw edwin.. Then continue to walk again.. He came with us. Cos also on the way ba.. Tok until veri funny..

Then reach home about 11 plus going 12 lor..

Now.. sunday... Tts even great.. hahaZ...

After service when ikea.... heheX...
Went with xiao xi, wei ying, jacinta and jian wei..
I bought shower curtain and candles...
Jacinta bought things for christmas...
A long the way veri lame and funny..
We keep on comparing things whether izzit heavy or not.. hahaZ..
Then onli until we went out of the shopping mall, then we know already veri late liaoz.. hehex
Wh0o0o~~~.. We shop for a few hours in ikea.. Hahaz. then we keep on complaining le pain...
Moreover my bag still veri heavy.. Ai yo yo... lolX...
Then suddenly my aunt sms tell me say the stupid computer man.. Stupid ah neh... Crash my computer.. ncluding the laptop.. Really feel like taking one electric cutter and cut him man. =P
Thank God now is alrite again le... HeheheX.. Then veri boring.... On the way in mrt, chat lor.. Chat until my phone low batt.. =P
HeheX..

This is enough le.. I'm blessed.. I felt the warmth once again... Jacinta alwaz say:*muzt smile*
HeheZ...... Next two week no Cg.... Haiz.. actually wanted to make somethig for refreshment again de.. Now wait lor.. heheX..

Oh yaH......... Tell u guys something.......
If u know me enough, everytime i go into a cd or vcd shop, i will alwaz hav stupid reaction....
Cause i can resist the temptations of the show i want.. But now...................
I got THREE sets of new vcds!!!!! Can watch until like siao man.. hahahaz.... My aunt bleSs de... Veri suprising hor??? Total of the cost is hundred over leh.. Though didn't get the wan i REALLY REALLY wanted.. But i'm satisfied! =)

Today got Bible study in church... *excited*

Toking about VcdS.. I've finish 'dolphin at the bay'......
The content is great!!!!!
But..............
The ending make me REAL DISAPPOINTED.

The ending is alrite... Is not tt the couples didn't end up together..
But the way they show it at the end really.....
HAIZ .... .....

I rather xiao gang went along with tian bian...
Its was really.......
DISAPPOINTING.
But i still love the content..
Normally... I alwaz thought tt the ending will forever be the nicest part.. But it turn out different....
Sad man....

*Its a long long journey..
Where i know i can be..
When shadow shine on my eyes*

Its a song la... muahahahaha.. Veri niCey.. Hear from Dolphin by the bay.. Jus nice i got the cd.. heheX..
Haiz.. My father's complaning tt i alwaz hide in the room.. I think maybe he stay at home veri bored ba.. hahaZ..

Ok loH..... Like tt.. Got somemorE than i posT ba! buai buai! =}

0linDA.. ... ...

2004-11-18T20:12:00.000+08:00

This year might be the best year of my bird day ba...

Thanxs peeps.....

Thanxs f0r the blessingS and remember my birthday... =)

Nowadays...... Things might be c00ling down ba..
But still.... Its still seems to have some conflict in betweens..
Anyway.. Hav faith! hehehex..... =)

This year g0t alot present.. hehex..
second time receive clothe for presents..
From Jacinta!!!
muahahahahaha

Today change wallet liao... May look different and fresh to me ba..
hahaZ.. cause i dun usually dun use tat kind of wallet.. hahaZ...

Today's highlight point: I VERY SWAY AH!!!

Hai yo.. tok about tt, i wanna vomit blood............
Haiz...

Argh!!!!!!

Anyway.. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. .. ..

Dun miss me hor.......... >.<***

BleahX~~~

iTs timE!!!!!

2004-11-13T09:48:00.000+08:00

Wh0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0~~~~~~~~

PEEPS!

ITS TIME NOW....

ITS THE DAY.

YES... IT IS.

N0 DOUBT. NO WRONG.

Its the day when 13 years ag0... I'm being brought to this world!!!!!!!!!!!

WAhahahahahahahhaahahhahahz.............
Hehex.. =)

*excited*
muahaha

0kIe...... leT mE read 0ut the PresenTs i have s0 faR and greetinGs.. heheX =)
presents: fr0m jas0n---> BakEd muffnS *supriseD*
fr0M graCe---> bluE papeR with phot0s and WOrds! *mem0rieS*
Fr0m mY smaLL aunT---> spoRt sh0E!!! *The m0sT eX sh0e i ever weAr*
fr0M mY m0thEr---> $$$ *am0unT uNreavlEd*
Fr0M my biG aunT---> $$$ *enD up buyinG thinGs f0r them to EaT. T.T*
fr0M jacinTa---> PAPER camErA & 0rEo * The caM is Wat i WanTed*

Eh.... i thinK sh0ulD be likE tt bA.. if i Miss out any0nE.. Tell me... heheX

OkaY... N0w.... GreatingS!!!
GreEtinGS: JasOn! (agaiN)
W0ng w0ng!
My biG aunT
mY brothEr (call mE eaRly in thE morning... I stiLL sleeping l0r..)
My mothEr
BuddiE! (wan yinG)
Ma!
pA!
shamuS! (PLUs onlinE present! -_-"')
JepH! (onlinE choclaTe baR! -_-"')
ALso..... MACDONALD 0f singapore.. ANd its realY from mAcdonald.. The sender wrote thEre: macdonald Oh mY!! wakakakakakkaaZZ.....

Dun bE jealous lA... >bleahX<

HehEx....

TimE n0w is 10.13 Am...

Hmmm... Later iF g0t more, i'll updatE!!! heEx..

yEah!! lateR goinG T0 siS!!! Wahahahaz..

ActuaLlY cann0t g0 One... But thEn... But g0d'S waY!!! heheheX...

Haiz... Jus sAw h0 h0's bloG...
P.S: * hey HeY.. U still caN tok to uS Ma... dun foregt thE "hogohwong" team leH...

HahAz....

It shaLL be uniTE!!! muahahhahahahZZ...

haiZ.. Al0t of ppL cann0t c0mE... Nvm..

HavE faitH!!! heheheX...

AnywaY....

tiLL here loR... HeheX... bAiZ baiz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

***duN miSS mE h0R~~~~~ =P

0rdiNary Friends

2004-11-10T21:01:00.000+08:00

作词：陶吉吉　作曲：陶吉吉

普通朋友

等待　我随时随地在等待　做你感情上的依赖我没有任何的疑问　这是爱我猜　你早就想要说明白　我觉得自己好失败从天堂掉落到深渊　多无奈

我愿意改变 (what can I do) 重新再来一遍 (just give me chance) 我无法只是普通朋友　感情已那么深　叫我怎么能放手

但你说 I only wanna be your friend 做个朋友我在你心中只是 just a friend 不是情人我感激你对我这样的坦白　但我给你的爱暂时收不回来 So I 我不能只是 be your friend　I just can't be your friend no,no,no,我不能只是做你的朋友　不能只是做普通朋友

Cool huh?? Hmmm... i like this song.. The lyrics also veri meaningful..

Today meet up with my primary School classmates..
Change alot..
But.. He really veri good lor..
He gave me to give me my present..Though he stay at little india there..
He's a chi.. hahaz... Dun misunderstood hor... He treat everybody veri good one..
Jus tt suprise he still remember... hehex.. =)

Haiz.. Today go school so sian... Whole day watch VCD. Also okay la... No math No Chinese!!! hehex.. Rox man.. But maybe only becos Mr koh didn't come ba..
Haiz..
Nowadays spend lots time chatting.. hahaz..
But maybe i sometimes also veri fan one la...
But.. Still fun!! hehex..
Hmmm....
Hope fri no chi and math man.. If not.. haiz... But on fri maths got TWO period...
Though veri short onli.. But still... Its seems to KILL me..
Muahahahahaha...

Today veri funny man.. My bud(buddy, wan ying) come my hse.... At first doing "proper" things wan.. Then end up, laugh and laugh non-stop..... -_-"'

Haiz.. Having changes again.. Jus live it with ba.. Have Faith!!! hehex..

Tomolo no sch..... Cause its a day when your father beat you!!! hehex.
Hehex.. Then need to rest at home.. Muzt "yang shang"..
Muahahahahaha.....

Actually got alot of things to do on deepavali de...
Then all in sudden, in the nite, msg and calls..
Haiz.. Got to plan somethings..
But... Haiz(again).....
HAIZ.......

Thinking your words over abd over again.. Trying to really get into the word.. Jia You!! hehex...
L00king forward to ~~coCA~~....
Hehex... =P
Hmmm.. Hope these are all blessing ba.. Hahaz..

Got to go!! UpdatE again neXt timE.. hehex..

School c0m lacK!!!

2004-11-09T09:45:00.000+08:00

I HATE BLOGGER.

i tpye until like wat.. suddenly everything stuck..
WAt the..............

Haiz.. jasmine ong.. Forget her password..

Com really lack.. i dunno how to use.. Too lousy until i seriously dunno how to use...

Haiz.. This world is full of unhappiness and unfairness...

Idiot koh say must study.. Exam over still must study.. Study waT?!?!?!

Haiz.. i expect today to be fun.. but it turn out like shit...

Later still have to go out.. No choice de..

Haiz.. i think until here lor..

Bye bYe...

ProbleS

2004-11-07T19:50:00.000+08:00

I wanted t0 forgive and forget.. But i need more time.. i wanna be like the past.. i hope so...

If things can be like so wonderful again.. i would be glad.. If nothing have happen..

But.. wat done cannot be undone.. And.. i cannot pretend tt nothing had happen...

I'm sorry.. I'm trying very hard here.. Hope you are too...

Alot of peeps are hoping to be last time again..

At the same time, to improve too..

I know one day......

By the will of God, there will be unity...

There will be peace in every one.. One day..

I dunno when.. But.. There will be..

I'm sure.. =)
***********************************

Today.. Something happen AGAIN.

Maybe some ppl will know.... Alot of them said tt i'm heartless..
Cause i still could laugh at the point of time..
Actually.. I'm over shocked... I've enough..
My tears are dry.. I can't cry infront of them.. I wanted to.. But i can't....
Maybe i used to it.. Enough of those shockings.... Accept it and jus handle it..
But.. This link to lots.. Its in a mess now...
Its uncleanable...
No one would expect it..
Its regard about blood, hospital, injuries and $$$...
The face all of of them is dull..
I wanted to lack.. Infact.. I'm already lack..
But.. I need to put a strong front infront of them.. All of them..
The onli time tat i can lack myself, is only my silent time.... Comitting my day to lord of the lords.

I hold it tightly in my hand..
Waiting for the vibrati0n..
Looking at the screen..
No words, no sound, no movement..
I sent lots...
But.. The alert wasn't working as well..
And i did, was to let it go...
Off it go..
No watching nor waiting anymore...
I've enough.

Btw... Thanxs Jacinta my beloved CGL(cellgp member)!!! hehex...
Trying to sort it out as soon as posible.
I think i will will end here le ba....

cosY:fouchy > Away fr0m CruetlY.

ridicul0uS..

2004-11-06T20:11:00.000+08:00

All a al0nG... i WanteD to saY somethinG.....
whiCh i knEw itS g0nnA hurT.. and huRt severlY..

But.. I chosE n0t t0 saY it.... For thE sakE 0f everY0nE.. i shaLL not saY as n0t tO causE pr0b..

*********************

RecentlY... beEn chattinG witH s0mEonE.. whicH was thE onlY 0ne taT i c0ulD finD to chaT with0ut streSs... duN neeD to thinK bef0rE i evEn saY anythinG.. juS say waT i wantEd.... iTs sinCe a l0nG timE taT i eveN chaT like tAt.. thiNgS happEn agaiN and aGaiN.... thanXs f0r the ppL ar0unD mE.... *God is g00d*

pr0bleMs c0ming 0nE anothEr.... WheN caN i juS havE a breaK??? i wAnt a l0nG breaK.. a l0nG and grEaT 0nE.....
somE ppl duN undErstanD... I n0t sayinG anythinG or Wat.. But.. Why izzit me?? evErYthinG seemS to bE me me me and me....
EvEn thinGs tt i didn't saY, suddenLY it wilL appeAr ritE infr0nT and saY tt i diD iT.... i hAvE en0ugH.. I'vE beeN bearinG insidE me.. I dun WannA causE any tr0ublE.. i waNnA leT it 0ut all... All thE whilE, i maY seemS alritE.. cauSe i dun wAnnA cause thinGs....
anD thiS timE.... i couldeN't beaR it anym0rE.... iTs m0rE thaN en0ugH.....

i c0uld unDersTand whEn y0u aren't in g00d mooD.. BuT.. why must iT be aLL thE time?? i cann0T takE it anym0Re... i duN wannA saY nastY worDs t0 y0u.. i'vE trY mY beSt.. yeT.... iS thiS wat i sh0ulD geT??? aLl faultS seemS t0 be minE.. All timEs... i'm tryInG to l00k at thE positivE sidE.. buT.. it seeMs taT i'm decEcivinG myself.. iS taT waT i'Ll geT?? i duN wan thiS 0utc0me.. all thE timE i triEd to bE nice to y0u.. buT waT i g0t?? minD y0u.. tatS n0t thE way....

iF thiS is thE way y0u Wan.. i can't d0 anythinG but to shuT uP... isn'T tt waT u Wan?? I triEd mY besT f0r everYthiNg....

i'm stuCk... i dunn0 wheRe to g0 0r h0W to moVe oN.... wateVeR i d0 juS duN plEaSe y0u ritE?? i duN evEn havE a choiCe.. d0 I?? waT i d0, itS n0nE of yR c0ncErn.... wat i SaY, iF it d0esn'T pleaSe yr eAr, theN juS shuT yR iT..

thkS pEEpS... F0r thE ramieN, for thE timE, the chatS anD als0 thE cAmpani0N....

I dun WisH to saY anythinG anym0Re.. iTs uselEss and RestlEss...

alL i wanTEd... iS juS a brEak... a timE i coulD resT.. thinKing bout nothinG....

WholE day in ScH lib.. hehex.. ^shoik ah!^

2004-11-02T11:53:00.000+08:00

Haiz.....................................

Being reflecting Wat i haD wrote F0r the LasT poSt i wr0Te...
I dun feeL wrong in anY way....
s0 if u think i'm Wr0ng... Sp0t out the MistaKe..

Rite n0w... I'm in tHE Sch00l Lib... Haiz..

All thanxs t0 umA... My beloveD uMa...
hahaz.. dun need to be in my tt "idiotic" class.. bleahx~
hehex..

Now onli me, grace xin yi and EXTRA LAVIN..
So noisy... He Shoulden'T eveN bE herE the L0Rz.. TheN als0 l00king at R-rated comics... Hehex..
As if n0w lib is ouR playground like tt.. er.. okay.. diaoz..
haiz...

bEing s0 disappoinTeD with tt perS0n...
seeMs to bE alwaZ taking AdvantagEs..
nEva kn0w When to eveN appriecatE.. ThinK like As iF itS rite..
Big sh0t ah???
Like as iF pResidEnT like taT...

Anyway...
The barbecue c0mfirM at nmy housE le... Hehex..
mY gRandmA sp0nSer chickeN wingZ!!! hehex..
But.. tts mY birthday preSent..
ChickeN wingZ as mY birthday presenT???
Er..... dIa0Z.. muahahaha...
Can Be blessiNG to 0theRs als0.. hehex..
Hmmm.. But got one pr0b.... I haveN b00k the barbacue plAcE..
cauSe theY saY neeD 18 yeaRs 0ld ppL and ab0ve to b0ok....*sobx sobx*
hahaz...

YestErDay wenT xia0 xI hsE... To do thE giftS and plAn.. But.....
Soli!! i didn't ReaLly helP much.. Cause g0t t0 gO sch... Haiz..
Veri pai Seh iEh..

Ah! als0.. YesterdaY whEn goinG off to sch00l froM xiao xI's house, G0t ppL Fetch mE g0 sch! hehex.. gUeSs wh0??

**sell DrinkS uncle... hiS is als0 the 0ne wh0 sold to mY fatHEr the Falt.. And he'S like onlI stay f0r 0ne yeaR lor! Tt housE really veRi nicE.. RenovateD.. EveN the kitCheN als0 Veri nEw one.. likE new versi0n de.. hahaz.. HiS s0n als0 study in Chr.. But dunn0 whO.. Haiz.. alS0 h0r.. thouGh he sell to uS the flat, which is g00d la.. but i stiLl.. Dun realLy likE him.. Cause hE ReallY makE ppl dispeSe him l0r! Hmmm... F0r further m0re details.. i thinK i'm n0T goNNa say.. muahahaha.. But one thing... Yesterday then i als0 meeT Hoh0.. Then imAGinE i wenT to meet them with a bus?! Its like EMBARRASING. Ermmm.. But.. sTill.. I dunn0 wat To saY.. Hehex.. so... I thinK tts alL f0r tt unClE.. hehex.. **

Hmmm..... Jus n0w Uma c0me in agaiN.. ScaRe me.. Haiz... mY posteR is "wonderful"!! hehex.. Tts thE first worD whEn she Saw tHe compuTeR.. Hehex.. Then.. Of coursE.. We Were tryinG to act sarcastiC... Hahaz.. But.. S0metimEs.. She can be Really 'hateable'.. Haiz..Buit.. s0metimEs.. She's fUn!! hehex

ReallY hopE grAcE can attEnd thE ind00r stAdium thingy.. Hmmm... ReAlly h0pe shE can rEalLy experience G0d and ReAlly joiN us f0r Cg and SerivCe.. Cause i trust hEr to bE great childRen 0f g0D.. heex...mAybe she FeeL itS a kinDa pressuRe to heR.. I dunno.. But still... H0pe she Really can HavE grEaT relasti0nshiP with God ba.. hehex.. [ask f0r it & u shall receive it] Hahaz..

BtW!!! H0h0 got a bl0g!!!!!!!! hmmm.... But dunno sHe will Update or n0t... Hahaz.. But.... dunno leH.. tryinG to linK heR..

I g0nnA be SERIOUSLY LONELY nexT year!!!!!! *sobx sobx sobx*
Cry m0re abit.. Cause really veri saD... Haiz.. dun thinK there wiLl still Be wonG ho Goh anymore.. buT i dunno wan it To DisappEar!!!!!! ~hur huR~
Haiz.. duN wiSh to mEnti0n anym0re lia0z.. Its goNna makE me cRy!!!!
HAIZ.............................

Hmmm.. i think TimE to go le.. Wa.. Wh0le Day in liB leh.. ShoiK ah! hehex..
Hmmm... todaE fastiNg.. By g0ds wiLl!!!! hehex..

living in CrueLtY..... RuninG awAY fr0m realItY..........

eVeryb0dy is cHaNginG

2004-11-01T09:16:00.000+08:00

EverYbody seemS to chaNge..

m0re and m0Re ppl givinG up Halfway..
They haveN reah thE mountAIn T0P... yEt THEy JuS GiVe uP..
w0uld u fEEl hearTacHe to sEe y0ur eff0rt goinG down thE draiN jus likE this?
iF u w0uld..... I WILL...

y0U are Jus smaShinG yr 0wn pAthwaY... juS give YrselF a chAnce and StAnd up agaiN..
Isn't Tats WaT u t0ld mE???
TheN why aRe u givinG up n0w???
jiA y0u bA...

evErYb0dy seemS t0 bE s0 dUll.. BuT i kn0w.. oNe thinG f0r suRe... theY will s00n bE lightEn up!! hehex..
CausE...................
chrisTmAs is c0minG!!!!!!!!
hehex..

yEsterdaY servicE waS greaT!! hehex..
0nCe agaiN... G0d has sorfteN mY hearT...
anD it g0nnA bE f0revA.. i kn0w.. =)

TheSe feWs daYs.. mY braiN seriousLY damagE reaDy...
i kEEp on losinG things.. anD alm0sT wantEd to makE a policE repoRt!
theN enD up... Found it iN mY an0theR baG...
onlY in fewS daYs.. I can loSe al0t of thingS mAn.....

alSo.. feeL tAt pPl am0ng ppL alwaZ haV baiseD attiTude.. i admiT i have..

**But izzit juS s0 difficult f0r u to Even jus puT up a smilE on yR facE when i t0k to u?
iF u telL me tts yR charActeR, BULL SHIT.
s0metimeS i reallY feel u G0t huGE attiTudE probleM..
anD i wannA teLL u.... You arE DISGUSTING.
i wanT ed t0 soRt out with u.. But everYtimE i calL you, u GivE me tat sUckY facE..
I haD givEn u enouGh respeCT..
Wat m0rE do u wan???**

i deCideD n0t to say out who is "HE".
caUse i duN wan t0 makE thinGs biG...
S0.. plS dun asK mE who izzit.. Thank you..

yeStErday disscuSed bouT the ind00r stadium 0uting.................
Hmmmm.. theY deciDed to have barbercuE... wH0o0o0o0~~~
hehEx.. F0r news friendS dE....
ReallY hoPe all friendS Can reaLly sTay...
thiNk we aRe gonnA have grEat fuN!!!!!!!
Muahahahahahahaha
l00kinG veri forWard to 13 & 14 nov!!!!!!!! hehex..
th0se kn0w mE weLL enouGh will kn0w de.. hehex... =D

mY buddY is WAn yinG!!!!!!!!!!! YeaH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehex....
i d0inG refreshmeNt and c0lectinG testiSm0nailS!! hehex..
*exCitEd*
thouGh therEs nothiN to bE exciTed Ab0ut.. But stilL.. ExcitEd!! hehex..

HaiZ... whY am i beinG choSen as aMbAssAdor??
al0T of ppL sayS its g00d chance..
Maybe theY are Rite..
But rite n0w... All i n0w is theY are calling us bacK to school F0r no ReAson!
Wat Is thiS maN..........................
As if Veri fuN like tt..
HaiZ... H0pE f0r the youNgEr geneRatI0n wiLl be bettEr.. hehex..
*sEE.. i'm thoughtfuL ieh.. hehex..* =P
~bleahx~

Hmmm.. ResUlts...
takE back Ready..
N0t bad lorZ.. hehex..
But mY fathEr faCe black unTil likE blacK saucE likE tat..
HaiZ.. SeriouslY.. ReCentLy i reAliSed tt he ThougHt All al0nG i'M in normal tecH!!!!
Wat thE....................
Didn't know hE sO thinK s0 loWly of hIs daughTEr.. Haiz..
Am i reAlly Tat baD??
Maybe in HiM.. YeS..
HaiZ...............

liVing in F0uCh... liVing in CrueltY...

2004-10-30T14:53:00.000+08:00

p0sting s0me piCs.. Bear with Me orh.. Soli!! Hehex.. Enj0y!

2004-10-30T14:50:00.000+08:00

SparkLes*** waTchInG theM simplY maKe mE streSs frEe... A kiNd 0f hapPinEss f0r a m0menT..

2004-10-30T14:47:00.000+08:00

i simPly l0ve Firew0rks.. SinCe younG.. I enj0y goin t0 ind00r stadium dUring nati0nal day.. Jus bec0s 0f thEm.. s0 beauTiful.. Yet s0 rarE.. thiS yeAr i didn'T geT a chAnce to watcH.. RegreT badly.. iF s0me0ne coulD als0 enjoy it with mE watching.. tAT wilL be greAt..

2004-10-30T14:42:00.000+08:00

timE is preCiouS.. Dun overl00k yR lifE.. CausE yr life is als0 jus As samE as preci0us as thEm..

2004-10-30T14:41:00.000+08:00

l00k at thE firEw0rks.. They aRe beauTifuL.. But iTs jus f0r a m0Ment.. thEY w0n't lasT..

2004-10-30T14:39:00.000+08:00

Okay.. This is QifanG! als0 kn0wn as Q.Q faNg and g0 chi paNg.. Hehex.. L00k at my hanD.. The w0rds are jUs f0r fun! blEahX~

2004-10-30T14:38:00.000+08:00

Hehex.. another mE.. Okay.. iTs stupiD & uglY.. Cann0t blamE.. hahaz.. Luv ya!

2004-10-30T14:37:00.000+08:00

She's a pr0!! StuDieS like dunn0 wat.. Hehex.. Wong wong hoho are PeePs 0f my liFe!!

2004-10-30T14:35:00.000+08:00

Intr0duCinG mY GaLfwEn!! hehex.. c00l huh??

2004-10-30T14:32:00.000+08:00

blEssEd... y0u r0x pEEps!

2004-10-30T14:30:00.000+08:00

pRecious m0ment.. Thanx g0d.. i GeT t0 kn0w thEm.. gReaT ppL..

2004-10-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

InTr0duCing N171 sistaZ!! hehex.. All S0o chi0 rite.. Hehex.. S0 bleSs to have themaRound with thEm.. heex..

2004-10-30T14:27:00.001+08:00

These aRe greAt.. ParT of thE placE where we WenT.. Hehex

2004-10-30T14:27:00.000+08:00

Miss th0se time... ReallY preciouS... Nev3r faiL t0 wasTe any sEc0nd, ev3rY minuTe..

Happie aniversary~!~!~!~!~!

2004-10-23T10:36:00.000+08:00

Suddenly have the ugre to blog...

Exams are finally over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hehex.....

Haiz.. but monday still got art.. Nvm.. hav faith! hehex

Yesterday is my ma and pa anniversary!!!!!!!!

P.s*dun make a "wild" guess when u dun know who izzit.. thank u.*

Hehex.. Hav fun lor..

Got laksa and cake!!!!!!!!!!!
Eh.. nasi lemak also included la.. Hahz..

Laksa is great!!!!!! Cake fr0m prima deli.. (dunno spelling corret or not.. heex)

Having great fun down there man.. Als0 got watch new police story.. Hahaz..
Hehez.. Then i sleep.. Okay.. i kn0w i pig.. hehex..

But the bed is great man.. feel like continuing sleeping. ZZZZzzzzz

Muahahahahaha

Yesterday cg was great man!! Though onli veri little ppl.. but still... The presence of god in upon us!!! Hehex..

Hmmm......... Lastly.. Happie annivesary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
L00king forwaRd to SundaY! =D

2004-10-23T10:01:00.000+08:00

S0 nEar yEt s faR.....

2004-10-23T09:59:00.000+08:00

Elephant TakinG reSt worz.. Hehex.. Good nitEZ!

2004-10-23T09:19:00.000+08:00

Wa.. likE volcano like tat.. Hahaz.. But serious.. How i wish i'm living down th3re leAding a SomPlE life.. =)

2004-10-23T09:18:00.000+08:00

Cuties!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ctue rite

2004-10-23T09:17:00.000+08:00

They are pictures 0f reality...

2004-10-23T09:14:00.000+08:00

They used to be beautiful places.. But becos of war.. Than like tat le..

2004-10-23T09:00:00.000+08:00

Look!!!!!!! Nice?? i wenT thiaLand take de... Great memories man..

DEAD.

2004-10-20T12:55:00.000+08:00

WheWwWwWwW...

DEAD BORING.

Exams examx exams... Haiz.. all day l0ng exams..
My friend all HOLIDAY READY!!
Then call me whether wanna go out or not..
Wat the..............

SIANZ!

Yesterday went study with Pa and Ma.. They b0th help me with my maths!! Great man.. Realy help al0t.. Having s0me fun too!! Hehex..

Hmmm....... Thinking 0f friday.............
MAKE ME DROOL!!!!!!!!
muahahahahaha.......

SECRET. TOP SECRET. So......... CANNOT SAY!! HEhex.. ~bleah~

Hmmm.. Haiz.. Today no body teach me science lia0.. Haiz.. COmFIRM fail wan.. HAIZ!!!!

Grace gave me my present yesterday... A "super dooper" early presne tman.. Muahaha..

But really niceY worz~~~

Hehex... Bring baCk memorieS... Hehex...

Today maths exam.. Okay la.. But stil.. Dun know wat to saY.. Hehex..

SERIOUSLY.. I dunno wat should i do for tomolo...

Cause i kn0w NOTHING about science....
And i mean nothing as in REALLY nothing!!

Haiz.. Die la die la....

Hmmm..... Leaving liao.. Buaiz!

2004-10-09T19:29:00.000+08:00

me and my fRien.... Everything sAme th ew0r.. Hehe.. Miss her...

2004-10-07T16:59:00.000+08:00

Me and gen go take neoprint.. he he.. go somemore... next time post ba.. he he!!

/....\

2004-10-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

Having a hatred in yr heart.. Feeling like a knife stabbing into yr heart.. Feeling down... Real down....

Once again... I wanna say... I HATE U.

I dun feel the same as last time anymore.. Serious..

And its like cutting slice by slices...

Leave me alone and never come back again..

I seriously HATE u..

2004-10-06T18:21:00.000+08:00

He he.. This one friday librian.. heh heh.. The m0st disgusting one is U. kumar lor.. Act cool bui cool.. He he..

great....

2004-10-06T17:19:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it!!!! I can type on blogger!! Hope really can see ba...

Todae didn't went for course.. Trying to go home early and study.. Then my father was like scolding me lor!! I'm here trying to get good marks.. There u are to say why dun wanna go.. Its my thing okay?! I dun need your comment.. Btw, the money is not u pay de.. so.. dun need to worrie tat i will waste money!

Yesterday nite.. Really went to the movies le.. Haiz.. Frankly speaking, the movie is great.. But.. I woulden wanna go movies with them animore.. Esp. 'her'..

Its kidda embarrassing... Can u imagine?? Laughing when its the sad part... OMG.

And everybody is like so quiet.. Then suddenly got laughter.. Everyody is like l00king behind lor! Really man.. Dunno where to hide my face.. Say buy popcorn for me.. End up.. 1/8 onli.. Nvm.. I won't go watch movies like tat again..

Real embarrasing.. In the midle of the show, change place.. Dunno for wat.. How am i ever gonna watch movie in oeace like tat?? Becos of them, i rush my hw in school... Gr3at...

Asked wong wong to help me to scan something.. Hope to post up s00n ba..

Haiz.. Getting lots fed-up with ppl..

Ks sick.. Shermane say one.. Listening to his voice.. Sick lor.. Haiz.. Hope won't end up like me ba.. ~PrAy~

Haiz.. Been thinking.. Am i really a pleasent person to hang about?? One of my frien.. A.A lim.. She best man.. Really fun to be with her. Never fail to laugh... Really wanna thanxs God.. Everything....

Really worry for my exam.... Haiz.... Seems to be worry about everything..

Problems are meant to be solved.. But i can't..

I'm sorry for making u all worrie.. F0rgive ba.... SorRy....

2004-10-05T16:48:00.000+08:00

Siew yu and me!!! I can post pics le!! Muahahahaha.. So good lor.. Can post blog and pics!! Muahhahah praise the lord!!!!!!

saddening.. fattening

2004-10-05T14:37:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. Just come back from school... todae quite early.. Hmmm..

Just now on the way back.. Saw wei qian.. Haiz.. Then shermane hav those thoughts again... Watever.. He sway.. Lost things.. Haiz... Then christina wanna go cause way and shop!! I ask her she dun need to study meh? She say EVERYTHING study finish ready... Great man.. Theres sssooo much for her to study lor.. She tell me finish ready?! OMG.. Then i ask her shop with who? She say shop ALONE... This gal pro man... I cannot imagine tat i ever shop alone in causeway point with my school uniform.. Ha ha.. Lolx..

Ppl.. Yesterday i say go movies with "them" rite? I manage to escape.. And do my hw.. But.. Today my father just tell me say tickets buy ready.. And i better go.. Come on!!!!!

U want me to watch movie.. Yet.. U still use tat wonderful tone to tok to me.. Great man.. Wat a nice way to approach ppl... Great.. Yet.. they never spare a thought for me.. So.. I dun need to study la!!! Exam fail nvm lor... Wat the...

Such "nice" ppl i hav around me.. Ha ha.. Its ever so fake lor! I seriously dunno wat to do man.. Wat can i say other than ok.. If i say no.. The FIRST reaction he will give is 'GLANCE'.......

Such nice big eyes man... Looking at me with the wonderful eyes of yours.. Then after tat..
Scold.. Tats the second reaction..

GGGGGGGRrrrrrrrrrrr.... Saddening.. Fattening...

Haiz... Really feel like running away from everything.. Seriously.. I really hope to go to far far away land.. And just dunno anything.. disappear rite away..

But i can't....

Tats not the way...

And theres something which i long wanted to say...

I HATE U.

I dunno whether to say or not.. All a long.. I wanted to say... Its kept deep inside me.. Hidden for a long long time.. I decided to let it out le.. But how i wish i can shout out.. Out loud.. But dun even think i have the courage...

I'm useless...

Suddenly realised tat my attitude change le.. More 'er xin'... I dunno why.. After school.. I've been thinking the things i do.. Its not really pleasent...

I wanna change.. But i dunno how to.. I really wanna change.. I feel so far from the "realistic" world.....

Anyway.. Ami ion the wrong for not going to movies yesterday??!! I dun see any wrong in me.... Unless i have promise them.. But i DIDN"T!!!

Yet.. They are blaming me for it... Great man.. This time.. "Wo ku bu chu lai"..

I never expect their reaction to be like tat..... I not in the wrong lor! Please la.. Justgive me a break...

I'm not really stress up with my studies.. Although its really veri stressful.. But.. The thing tat ever give me the MOST stress.. Is THEM.

If u really think i'm in the wrong.. Tell me.. Reason... I want the reason.. Its enough.. Really enough le.. I dun want to be reprimand by u animore..

If onli i can leave this family.. I dun wanna know them.. Infact.. Its a hard thing to know them.. I alwaz thought tat i'm veri blessed by them..

Now.. I dunno wat to say.. Not anymore.. When things go wrong.. U blame me.. Even i'm not involve.. Every body thought them i got a 'xing fu de jia ting'..

I did not say anything.. Explain futher more also no use de.. Living one day by one day.. Every hour by hour...

Wat can i do other than shut up.. I did not tell ani body.. Cause i think i trouble too much le.. Enough le.. I myself is enough.. Bear it inside me.. Good enough ready..

Dun wanna say le.. Too much to say.. Forever like tat..

St0p it ba...

I hate u.. Seriously i do..

2004-10-04T16:05:00.000+08:00

I'm soon getting depression.... Nowadays blog post until like dunno wat.. When i go read my own blog.. Sianz diaoz..

Haiz..

Todae got alot of hw..

Yesterday didn't went for service... So sad... Watch over internet.. Rev. albert..

Great man of god.. Ha ha.. Praise the lord tat my com is able to watch live services on internet..

Hmmm.. Cause feeling bad.. Dun hav strenght.. Haiz.. Moreover.. Yesterday is the first week of the month.. =(

Saddening.. Fattening.. Haiz....

I know u just won't get my point.. Watever.. I seriously is a mad case.. Soon going to hav depression..

I dun wanna go out with 'them' later.. Can't i even have the Basic freedom??!! No one gives it to me.. Just becos of them...

I have to rush my hw.. No time to revise.. Just becos of them!!!!

If i ask my father if i can go out.. He would say exam next week..

Ask me whather i wanna die..

Now?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I wanna study.. But?!?!

He wanna me to watch movie.. Yaya.. Movies can help me with my studies izzit?

So.. If he want me to explain anout my result.... I will not say any good reason.. But the reason he wanna me go watch movie!

I didn't wanna go.... Esp. with them.. My worst day ever in cinema..

I dun wan!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!

I really dun wanna go... Crying.. Is the onli solution to let out.. Cause there isn't anyone to share le.. Really..

There seems to be a transparent wall between me and every single ppl..

Crying is the onli way to make myself feel better... Lots better... And to sort out things.. To know wat is rite and wrong for me..

I seriously dunno.. Now.... I seems to enjoy crying.. Cause it seriously make me better.. Although sometimes ppl say:" dun cry la.. Dun be sad.. "

This phrase.. Veri familar to me.. But sometimes.. I dunno wat to reply them.. Except for just looking at them... Thanxs God for all the ppl..

Some ppl dunno how bless they are.. I dunno wat am i.. Ppl alwaz say tat i'm veri blessed.. True enough..

But....

Inside of me.. No one... No one to turn to now....

During the darkest nite.. Scary.... Cause i have lost my light.. Spoil le.. Not able to work it anymore..

Todae wong wong ask me "wat does u had lost the light of hope means?"

I dunno how to explain to her.. Suddenly stunt.. Dunno wat my reaction should be.. Soli..

I'm going... Bye.............

Depression

2004-10-03T08:17:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. Todae wake up extra early.. Although yesterday sleep abit late..

Haiz.. Life seems to be so funny... U dunno wats gonna happen next..

Maybe the next minute... I might just go like tat....

Later will be goin church.. Hope will be better ba.. Better dun vomit le.. But wat if later sleep in the audi how? Won't one la hor.. Ha ha..

Frankly speaking.. I dun know wat am i posting.. As if me toking to myself..

Sound as if i got depression like dat.. Haiz... I think i better go get ready liao.. Bye bye...

wAt should i even bl0g..

2004-10-02T18:13:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. Hihi again.. Feel like blogging.. But dunno wat to blog...

Hmmm.. My cousin now at my house.. Noisy man.. Cannot even sleep... Haiz.. But sometimes with them around also good.. dun need study.. He he... Play lor..

But most of the time, play veri stupid thing.. Really stupid till the extend man.. But their studies... Thumbs up.. They both in study pro one.. Esp. math.. Omg.. Tats my worst subject ever.. He he.. Pai seh...

Xiang dao yesterday.. Just veri blessed.. He he.. Like family warmth..

How about "real" family???

I dun have..

Its cold..

Real cold..

Hmmm.. Later.. I'm alone again.. Yesterday.. Saw another side of him.. Hate it..

Haiz.. How i wish i can go out later.. Dun wanna stay in the 'sang xin di'..

How i wish i can go out whole day and have fun.. Enjoy muself.. Forgetting everything for a moment.. But still.. Just a moment... Cannot stay long.. Thought of someone to go out with.. But imposible.. Cause i dun even think i can go out..

Acutually.. I'm suppose to go watch movie de.. But becos of the two ppl whom i going to watch with.. I decided not to go anymore.. I dun wanna see any more close time of them.. It make me feel lousy.. Real lousy...

Later i'll be alone.. Me and God onli.. No more....

How is wish i can go back time.. Go back to my heaven.. A place where belongs to me and God..
How i wish i can protect my heaven like never before..

But....

Its impossible anymore.. Tat place have become a stranger.. It now belongs to someone else.. A place without my presence... Not anymore.. Look ever so strange to me..

Again... Partly of the reason... Which i really tresure N171.. Is becos they give me the warmth like i never before.. And the presence of God.. Make me rest so peacefully in his arms.. A love which i yearn for..

Will i ever get the warmth from my family? Will i ever hav my great father like last time? Dun think so le...

I'm in pain!!

2004-10-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

Hmmm.. Just come Home from Cg..

Pain pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Veri pain!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PAin non stop one!!

Haiz.. Just pain until cannot tahan.. Cry abit.. Veri xing ku. Hmmm.. But i wanna thanxs god for..................................

Gen!!

Shermane!!

Jacinta!!

Wei ying!!

Jian wei!!

Lai hui!!

Kai shing!!

A.A lim!!

And everybody tat concern me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He he..

So blessed by their concern.. But someone treat me like transparent.. Nvm.. Dun say le..

Hmmm.. But.. I still veri pain!!!!!!!

Hmmm.. Just now N171 pray for me.. Dunno why, the pain worsen.. Maybe becos of the noise ba.. Cause migrian is like dat one.. Got high fever even.. And high as in really high.. My face veri red when i reach jian wei house..

Hmmm.. Then half way prayer meeting.. Went toliet and vomit.. Haiz.. Dun even have the 'proper' strenght to walk..

Then after tat they really veri good lor.. I sit on the chair during Cg... Feel so bu xi guan.. Veri weird.. Then jian wei pour warm water for me.. He he..

Let me annouce.. My new "ma" is gen!! Muahahahaha..

Ssososososososos Blessed to know her... She blessed me to take cab leh.. He he.. Cause before tat i almost scared gen. shermane and lai hui to death.. Soli..

Cause bus come liao.. Then dun dare to go home late.. Then gen was like sreaming.. Ay yo.. Really cannot imagine wat i had just done man..

Soli!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Soli!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Soli!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Then she also come my house.. Come see see and waste time.. He he.. Show her abit of things onli.. Hmmm.. Thanxs god man.. Really for everything..

Have u being transparent in some ppl's life?? Maybe got ba.. I am one of them.. Undescrible.. Dunno how to be specific.. anyway... Sometimes being able to see through othr's ppl mind.. is hard and easy.. But i think.. Gen can see my mind.. But one thing for sure..

*God is abe to see through everybody's mind!!* He he..Amen..

Really hope to attend for service.. Hmmm.. My aunt wanna come and see see.. Dun no wat to say.. Anyway.. Maybe asking jacinta ba.. Today's nite.. Nicey.. But i'm being ruined by my stupid enemy..

V.I.R.U.S

Let me tell u something.. This enemy of mine is a really serious stupid thing.. Never try to get near him.. He is in the cahoots with the demons!! He also trying to kill ppl.. And he almost get me to death!! But thanxs God i have God!! Muaahahahaha..

Btw... I'm still in pain!! hmmm.. i wana go sleep liao.. bye bye..

Also!! Remember!! dun ever get near to my enemy!! Take care!!

Expenses.. I dun have..

2004-10-01T08:58:00.000+08:00

Wow.. Now really can blog.. But when wan to edit.. A bit ma fan.. Hmmm.. Can blog veri good liao... He he..

Felt so useless.. Cannot do anything now..

By the way.. Yesterday arond 10 plus like dat.. Receive a message from wei ying.. He he.. Telling me to take care of myself.. Hmmm.. So touched lor.. Cause she is the.. Eh.. dun wanna say la.. Hmmm.. Dunno how she know.. But still.. Thanxs wei ying!! So good lor she... hehe

Hmmm.. Felt closer to A.A lim le.. Really find tat she is a good person.. Very concern about me.. Thanxs!! She really veri fun.. Also veri touched by her msg.. Cause she is also the.. Eh.. Dun wanna say la.. Hmmm.. Can see she treat frien veri good de.. So blessed to know her..

I really veri scared cannot go Cg... Cause.. Haiz.. Suan le..

Nowadays got alot of things dun dare to say.. Dunno why.. I'm lacking... lots and lots.. Haiz.. Give me strenght ba..

Now blogging.. Mean while lisening to 'one way'.. Great song man.. He he.. Hmmm.. Now my blog got my source... Great rite.. He he.. Great song..

One praise and one worship.. Good good.. Hmmm.. Expenses.. Really trying to save alot of things.. Now if i add up everything i wanna, tats mean.. Need $150.. All these are for Cds, Vcds, Comics, Dvds.. Hmmm.. Got alot i wanna buy.. Btw!! Sher got 'Troy"!! Great show man.. One day muzt borrow from her.. He he..

Hmmm.. Nowadays veri easy get irritated.. i Getting more lousy.. Really.. Attitude, character.. Everything.. So lan.. Hmmm.. Thanxs god for all friends.. Truly...

~u are my source and salvation~

I dunno wat to do.. Hmmm.. Pray ba..

Eveything is smashed..

2004-10-01T07:45:00.000+08:00

Praise the lord!! i suddenly can blog.. Wow.. Mirical man.. And its like so many days didn;t blog le lor.. Even now hello also cannot.. Haiz.. But i scared later cannot again...

Hmmm.. Sick.. sick.. Real sick man.. Its just onli two weeks ago.. And now i sick again.. This time abit more serious.. He he.. Hmmm.. Gastric flu, vomiting, flu, cough, worst sore throat, stomach pain, migrain... Haiz.. Great rite.. Then tok also dun wanna say much.. Hwee...

So got MC lor.. Thursday half day and friday.. He he.. ppl sec 1 no children day.. I got... Ha ha.. Suddenly got few ppl come visit my blog.. Thanxs thanxs...

Haiz... These fews.. Atmosphere so lousy de.. No mood to do anything..

On thurday morning.. Go to school.. First peroid, then go vomit liao.. I hate vomiting man.. The feeling really bad lor.. The taste also.. Sometimes... Haiz.. Why like dat.. Then worst still.. Cannot walk.. Great man.. Then wait in the sick bay.. Then all teachers thought tat i gastric pain.. Didn;t eat.. Haiz.. Than when mdn ng say my father will be reaching at around 9.30.. I was likle waiting and waiting.. Is really pain lor.. Then end up.. he 10.10 am then come..

Then go clinic... Wait for 2 hours!!! Sianz diao..

Haiz.. Life is like dat de lor.. alwaz being pushed to aside.. Wat is this man..

This woman really getting on my nerves.. Alwaz think tat she is rite.. Lying non-stop.. Starting.. tell u something tat make u so happy.. then end up.. the ending sux.. I hate this kind of ppl.. Wat is this man.. Then alwaz tell me she need "PRIVACY".. Then wat about me? ! She didn't even spare a bit of thought for me.. Wat is this man.. And i decided not to trust her anymore.. On the past.. I trust her more than anyone.. Now.. I won;t trust her anymore.. She obviously is a big fat liar! How am i going to survive with her around.. Omg..

Really veri disappointed with her..

She no longer can gain my trust animore..

We are not tat close than ever..

I seroiusly need a break from them... Pushing to me everything.. And expect me to do everything.. Anyway.. To them i'm jus a servant... Aren't i? We used to live in peace, harmony... Now.. Nothing.. they are not my family.. I dunno them.. My house isn;t my house animore..

I have nothing to say.. Wat i should say, i have already say.. but.. they dun seems to care abit..

Speechless.. Totally speechless.. I hate problems to be compared.. Seriously.. I do..

My space, privacy, eveything.. Is being smash by them.. I dun have the light of hope.. No more.. Its spoiled.. Great man..

If onli it can be fixed.. But.. There isn't a single way to fix it..

And if onli my house can be build up again.. But i dun think so.. Everything is smashed into small pieces.. Nothing memorable.. All i can do.. Pray.. Hmmm..

Todae got Cg.. Dunno whether can go or not.. Hope can go ba.. The onli place with warmth.. =)

0v3r aLl r3sUlts..

2004-09-28T16:51:00.000+08:00

This photo l00k nice.. Hmmm.. Me and gen and wj go sentose take de.. Nicey!! HMmm... Just now went cuaseway with hoho and wong wong.. We all went mad.. Laughing until dunno like wat.. Hanging out with them really fun lor.. Muahahahha.. Went to buy present for alicia... First time buy presnt until so carefully.. Cause we wanted to buy something special.. He he.. Spend alot of $$$.. Hmmm.. Hope she like it... Hmmm.. Haiz.. These few days headace none stop... pain until wanna vomit.. Hmmm.. todae also got test.. Haiz.. Totally no confidence.. Die die la... My IPW project also.. Feel like doing it again.. He he.. Mad ng say tomolo tok to me.. Hope everything go real good.. ~~*pray*~~ Muahahaha.. Cause realy think tat i can do lots better.. But ppl keep oin telling me veri good ready.. Btw.. My one is last min work.. Last min as in really last min.. We all totally forget about iut lor.. Then is like xiang dao sen me jiu jiang sen me.. Haha.. Anyway.. Todae A.Alim sick. Fever.. Feelo so bad leh..Didn;t go visit her.. But got call her.. Hmmm.. sound so sick lor she.. Then also todae go through history.. Dun even know wat teacher toking about lor.. Sometimes if really go and think ah... Does this subjects really help u in future?? Onli the grades ba.. Haiz.. Test test test.. All day tests.. Really hate math lor.. MAth is the worst subject ever man.. Dun even know anything.. Haiz.. V3ri lan.. ... ... ... Sherry birthday yesterday. Muahahha.. I remember hor... Ha ha.. Cause she say if not, she rather go and die lor.. Lolx.. How I wish now is holiday lor.. Long long holiday.. Hewewewewewewe... Living in my heaven, reading my comics, listening to such wonderful songs, no one disturbing.. Also aircon.. He he. Tats really my "heaven".. Muahahhah.. But i'm sure the real heaven will be so wondeful lor.. Wehehehe.. Hmmm.. Expenses.. Thinking of ytat really make me fustrated.. Eh.. Not saying anymore le.. bye..! =)

todAt's s3rvic3..

2004-09-26T20:47:00.000+08:00

Today went for service... Great man.. He he.. Felt recharged... Alwaz feel great after cg and service..... Hmmm.. Got a new word from the holy spirit.. Great man.. Muahahaha.. Hmmm.. Today seems to be so dull other than service.. Gen also didn't come.. Siew yu also.. Hmmm... Still.. So dull.. Anyway.. Dunno why nowadays like nothing to blog like tat.. Wei jie's blog getting shorter than ever... Nowadays veri "qing xu gan".. Wahahaha.. So sainz lor.. Hw also haven do.. Dun have the atmosphere to do.. Heh heh.. But sher wanna let me copy.. wahaha.. okie liao.. i wanna go see "yi tian tu long ji " liao.. He he.. Buaiz!

2004-09-25T17:40:00.000+08:00

U tried to be one.. But u never.. I seriously dunno wat are u thinking about.. All u know is just saying others.. And u never think tat the one who is wrong is actually u... All u think is about yrself.. And u think tat watever u think will be alwaz rite.. All u think is only about yrself..

Hmmm.. Dunno wat to say.. Although felt tat there is alot of things to blog.. But i dun even know wat should i say.. okay.. I;m a idiot.. Seriously.. Its hurt.. Its really hurt.. Hurt deeply.. But.. Who will even go and notice it? No one.. All they know is just yr appearance.. IF u 'look' happy.. They will think tat u are full of joy... Hmmm.. Pardon me for posting this ppl..

Hmmm.. I've change my room.... Table moved... Today.. Speechles...

Wat should my reaction be?? I dunno.. Feel like going out now.. But.. I can't.. Haiz.. Any.. Satisfied with wat i have now.. Sometimes ppl compare their problems... "Jia jia you ben nan nian the jing".. Maybe dun need ba.. Can problems can be compared?? I hate problems... I mean everybody will.. But.. Nvm..

My this post is really boring.. I'm mad le.. Time for me to take y medicine.. Buaiz!

Feeling of ppl..

2004-09-25T16:02:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..... posting by hello.. So weird.. Anyway.. Yesterday go cg.. Fun and also not tat fun.. Dunno how to say.. Been thinking of it for the whole day le... MAybe u might think there is nothing to think about.. But.. It just look so precious to me.. Wat else... By the way.. Siew yu join us for cg yesterday.. Everybody was like sosos excited lor! Muahaha.. Really glad to see her... Yesterday cg was great..... I prayed for jackson.. The presence is just so strong.. Then gen prayed for me.. Hmmm... I actuallyed cries abit.. Just felt tat the word really touched me.. Its just so wonderful.. Ha ha.. Then she also veri funny.. Hmmm... Anyway... After went fushan garden.. Not really consider "shang yue".. Haha.. But A.A lim and i was like so extra lor.. Hmmm.. Zuxian also got come.. So glad to see her.. Dunno why.. See her really make me feel calm... She can really consider as the most sensible of all.. Really wanna thanxs god for her... She is great.. By the way.. My light of hope spoil le.. So disappointed man.. All along wanted break it de.. But yesterday cannot break.. Everything went so wrong.. Didn't really enjoy myself.. But A.A lim alwaz cheer me.. Never fail to laugh.... ALso... laughter is there.. But... Does is really come from the deep of yr heart? Izzit the sound of happiness? Hope so ba

Blog! Blog!

2004-09-23T14:51:00.000+08:00

Feeling so geat to blog again.. Muahaha.. Hmmm.. Links getting more le.. Ha ha.. Cause got add zu xian, sherry, grace and.. Ay ya... Forget le.. Anyway.. Now not at home.. In school computer lab wor.. Ha ha.. Cause no having course.. So.. Tou tou de blog lor.. Wahaha..

Ho ho playing neopets leh..

Haiz.....

Really happening too much things le... But in another hand.. Felt so blessed by some ppl.. Feeling like angels being send down to me lor.. Hmmm.. Thanxs God for tat such great blessing.. =)

Last time.. Used to love my home so much.. Now hate it until like shit.. Sound bad.. But tats the only word tat i can use to describe.. Last time alwaz wanna go home.. To enjoy myself in my own space, own world.. Now.. Nothing.. Space, pirvacy? GONE.... All gone.. But thanxs god again for my mattres.. New...

But still... Dun lose faith.. Jia jia you ben nan nian de jing.. Haha..

Nowaday felt tat my temper is getting from bad to worst.. Cannot control wan..

Felt so insecure by friends.. Dun trust them as i last time.. Family too.. Really dunno who to turn to at times.. But thanxs God.. I have him and N171!! Muahahahaha.. But sometimes.. Really dunno how to approach them.. Suddenly feel so far away.. Onli Me in my world.. Hmmm.. Forget it ba.. Just let it be ba..

Gtg le.. Btw.. Next time muzt post through hello le.. Cause at my house de com blogger got problem.. Haiz.. Go liao.. Buai!!!

2004-09-22T20:50:00.000+08:00

Today sick again.. Haiz.. Really big headace.. Haiz.. Mr Tan was like down there saying.."Huh? So young already got migrain arh?" Hmmm.. So pain until canot ta han.. So go home lor.. Wanna thanxs grace and jasmine.. Company me through the time until my father come.. Ha ha.. I also actually saved them for skipping lesson wor.. Ha ha.. Suddenly felt tat i'm ever so foolish.. Cause Last time everytime quarrel with her over smalll things.. Really foolish lor me.. Hmmm.. Anyway.. feeling so sad about veron and sher.. Haiz.. They used to be sssoo close last time... Now.. Fight until dunno like wat.. How i wish they can be like last time again.. Recently are really happening too much things.. Too much to say.. Miss alot of ppl.. But.. So near yet so far.. Maybe only sher will understand wat i mean.. Haiz.. Sick until like shit like tat.. Really thanxs for al the concern tat ppl give me.. It started on sunday.. At church lobby.. Sneeze and sneeze non stop.. Thanxs god tat elieen brought the whole roll of toliet paper.. haha.. Then the whole day, ppl of N171 was like really concern me so much lor.. WWee. He he.. Felt so blessed.. Jian wei also.. Ha ha.. Finally.. MY JAW!!! Sob sob.. Haiz.. Dun wanna tok about it anymore le...

2004-09-22T20:36:00.000+08:00

Ha ha.. Another me.. Haiz.. Last year went thailand with my aunt.. Shopping none stop.. Wahaha. Hmmm.. Really feil veru blessed by ppl aroind me.. Esp. N171 & friends..

2004-09-22T20:30:00.000+08:00

Since a long time tat i really blog.. Hmmm. finally i can do this le/.. Ha ha.. Hand itchy also..Lots and lots of thoufgts to share.. Now publish with hello.. At leat better then nothig ma hor.. Hmmm.. Try tis out first ba.. Buaiz!

Wordless blog

2004-09-15T19:00:00.000+08:00